I subscribed several months ago to receive the daily devotion from Proverbs 31 Ministries. Today's was entitled "
When My Happy Gets Bumped". (Click the title if you'd like to read the devotion.) I love when the devotion speaks straight to my heart. This one was perfect timing. Like most girls, I do have a habit of getting very upset over such small, stupid issues. I'm aware of the problem and have been working on it, even my husband has noticed. Yesterday we had one of our small fights that got out of hand rather quickly. One of the biggest issues in our marriage is communication. I'm very open about my thoughts & feelings; my husband not so much. In the past he's said he'll work on it, but nothing changes. Yesterday was one of those days. I was very upset about something and needed to talk it through with him but couldn't because 1) I was at work and don't like to discuss personal matters where others can hear and 2) he was also out to lunch with some fellow soldiers, but I didn't know this at the time. Because he was around people & knows I don't like either of us to discuss personal matters in public, he wasn't able to call me nor was he answering my texts. This went on for about an hour. With each passing minute I was getting more & more upset and hurt. I started thinking he was ignoring me and didn't care about how I was feeling. (I know now that wasn't true.) My happy was bumped for the remaining few hours I was at work.
After work I called him to explain how I was feeling & he actually opened up and shared his own thoughts & feelings. I was so happy and thankful! I still am just thinking about it. That was a HUGE step for my husband. He's used to keeping everything in because that's how he was raised & the type of environment he was in. So this was huge for him. I thanked him for opening up and told him how much I appreciated it. It made me so happy. I love when we have productive arguments and conversations. It gives me so much hope for our future. I woke up this morning still thankful for that conversation, so of course I called him. haha. His primary love language is Words of Affirmation and I try to tell him positive things as much as possible. I literally feel like my "cup runneth over". I know it sounds silly, but I'm so content and thankful right now for the people God has placed in my life. I have such amazing, uplifting, & encouraging friends and a loving, caring husband. I'm very blessed. ♥
